[ ... awkwardly; ]

I-- I mean, I'm not... really, like... anyone's first choice for anything, y'know? I'm not dumb enough to think that. And it doesn't really bother me, or anything... cuz I know everyone got their own stuff to worry about, whether it's you all in Zrael or Nemesis or anyone else.

Saying stuff like that out loud isn't... y'know, it's weird and uncomfy so it's not like I'm gonna make anyone talk about it or admit it, either?