... I keep running into things that... you're all okay with, and I'm not, and I guess I don't really know how to... um. Deal with it. Or something. I guess.
But I love you guys? And I want to keep you all safe too. But that's... easy, compared to trying to protect someone else.
[ now it's his turn to draw his knees to his chest, dragging his hands over his face while he thinks out his response to that ]
... We aren't really going to change, most of us. We're different from almost everyone else here in the way we think, the way we act, our understanding of the world, our morals and our standards. Because of the worlds we were raised in, or because of what we were born to be. So—even if the way we think sometimes bothers you, I don't think there's an easy solution.
But we don't expect you to change and do things you're not okay with, either. So at least know that.
... I know. I guess it's... I'm really different to begin with, y'know? And then it's like... the people I should belong with, they're crazy different from ME too...? It's just... a lot. And I kinda lost it on Red and Ashes last time and... I guess I'm just, trying to ignore it more. Or something.
If it helps, it's not like the rest of us are all on the same page either. Red, Dia, Doodles, everyone—they all do or say stuff I don't understand sometimes. The same goes for them, about me, I bet.
But that's all we can do, really. Try to understand, and if we can't, move on.
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stakesthesame) wrote2018-11-05 11:20 pm
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[ thunks her head against her knees ]
Sorry. I know I'm being... stupid, and selfish. I know it's unrealistic and whatever.
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☆ZRAEL cares. About you, and about us, more than anything else.
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Dude, shut up, I'm trying. Okay?
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You're fine. There's no way to be a "bad ☆ZRAEL."
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But I love you guys? And I want to keep you all safe too. But that's... easy, compared to trying to protect someone else.
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... We aren't really going to change, most of us. We're different from almost everyone else here in the way we think, the way we act, our understanding of the world, our morals and our standards. Because of the worlds we were raised in, or because of what we were born to be. So—even if the way we think sometimes bothers you, I don't think there's an easy solution.
But we don't expect you to change and do things you're not okay with, either. So at least know that.
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But that's all we can do, really. Try to understand, and if we can't, move on.
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[ silent for a moment, before shuffling over to lean against his side. A bit. ]
Sorry.
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Don't be. You're fine.
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[ reluctantly pulls away so she can get up and gather the couple of things she has with her. ]
A nap in bed would be nice...
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A lot warmer, I bet.
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