... anyway, he the only one? Or only one you wanna talk about, I guess. ... if I ever get to that point with someone else I'll definitely run things by you first before I do anything with anyone. If that sounds good?
And—no, that’s not fair, I’m not— Nobody should be telling people what relationships they can and can’t have; I veto that. Just ‘cause you got bad taste don’t mean it’s not your right to act on it.
... I really don't mind? I mean-- it's been long enough in this place that if anybody else was even interested in me they might have said something anyway and nobody has. And I really haven't been looking at anyone else to begin with, either. Stuff with Ashes was from before we started dating, too...
Bad choices are different. I have great taste. You taste great!
S'not taking if I'm giving it to you... but fine, that's fine. No vetos, then. ... just don't really know what to do if one of us DOES got a problem with it in that case.
...If...we were gonna talk about that anyway, right? So if you decide you wanna be Aradia’s sister wife or something,we can talk about why... That, uh, make sense...?
Yeah. In general though... for me. If you're kissing or doing other things matters less to me than if you... started dating them or loved them or something.
... I think that's part of why I got so bugged out about it before. Cuz I'd never consider you someone who like... does that stuff with people you don't care about, y'know? Not that it's an excuse.
...Yeah, uh. Same. If you-- I mean. I know you and your team are close already, so...
[continues to split the bagel into component atoms and decides to move on]
It's not an excuse. But if something was going on that, uh, affected how I felt, for you, then I'd've let you know anyways. 'Cause you're important.
...And that's why I got so pissed. 'Cause it meant you didn't trust me, or thought I wouldn't--value you enough to say anything. And--both of those're bad.
Eh... you don't really have to worry about any of them. 'Side from Ashes, don't think any of them would be interested in any of this stuff with me.
I do trust you-- it's not an issue of "value" or anything, either, and it took like... the rest of the night thinking about it to realize that's mostly what it was? The feelings thing. I'd kinda realized I had some jealousy stuff a bit ago, but it never came up, and I never had reason to think it would so I guess I just... if you don't acknowledge it it doesn't exist, right?
[ huffs, and drains her cup, flopping back on the windowseat ]
It's all bad though, you're right. ... I definitely panicked. I guess cuz it was like... if something like that happens, I won't matter anymore...? Or something. ... kinda felt worse after that dillweed sent everyones' submissions to our phones, too.
...
Maybe it's stupid, but... I.
Uh.
... you won't make fun of me if I'm honest about somethin', right?
[ drops her arm over her face, sorta. miserably red?? ]
I saw Intensity there and I like. I dunno. Got really sad, I guess...? Kinda felt like, maybe I'm really NOT good enough. I dunno a single person who'd be willing to kiss the guy that isn't basically crazy in love with him. And--
[ pauses. ]
... I dunno. My insecurity or whatever the heck about Intensity being a better girlfriend than me isn't your problem to fix and you don't gotta do anything about it or nothin'. M'just happy you're giving me a chance at all so I'll-- I'll work on it somehow.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 05:55 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 05:59 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:01 am (UTC)From:... Kitty, come on. It's obviously you.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:20 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:22 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:29 am (UTC)From:[she ducks down to pick up bagel crumbs; lets her hair fall in front of warm cheeks]
I-I mean. I know that. That's probably why he felt comfortable enough to, ah. Practice, I guess.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:30 am (UTC)From:He has. A crush. On you. Like, the same one I did! Actually it's probably stronger than "crush" by now but you get my gist.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:43 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:43 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:43 am (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 06:51 am (UTC)From:... anyway, he the only one? Or only one you wanna talk about, I guess. ... if I ever get to that point with someone else I'll definitely run things by you first before I do anything with anyone. If that sounds good?
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 07:04 am (UTC)From:[purses her lips, brushing the remains of the bagel back into the bag it came in]
...Anyways--fine, sounds fine. And I guess I'll do the same. And--if you got a problem with it...or I do...then...
[uh what is problemsolving without knives]
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 03:06 pm (UTC)From:[ huffs. And thinks for a moment ]
... well, you've got total veto power. You come first before anyone else, for me.
Otherwise we can just... talk it out, I guess. M'not gonna make you stop if you want something with someone else.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 03:23 pm (UTC)From:[and fffrowns]
And—no, that’s not fair, I’m not— Nobody should be telling people what relationships they can and can’t have; I veto that. Just ‘cause you got bad taste don’t mean it’s not your right to act on it.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 03:29 pm (UTC)From:... I do not have bad taste.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 04:06 pm (UTC)From:[frowns more resolutely; shakes her head]
A relationship should be equals. Otherwise I’m not interested.
[pauses]
...And you absolutely do; I seen the choices you make.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 04:16 pm (UTC)From:S'not taking if I'm giving it to you... but fine, that's fine. No vetos, then. ... just don't really know what to do if one of us DOES got a problem with it in that case.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 07:53 pm (UTC)From:...If...we were gonna talk about that anyway, right? So if you decide you wanna be Aradia’s sister wife or something,we can talk about why... That, uh, make sense...?
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 08:44 pm (UTC)From:Yeah. In general though... for me. If you're kissing or doing other things matters less to me than if you... started dating them or loved them or something.
... I think that's part of why I got so bugged out about it before. Cuz I'd never consider you someone who like... does that stuff with people you don't care about, y'know? Not that it's an excuse.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 10:46 pm (UTC)From:[continues to split the bagel into component atoms and decides to move on]
It's not an excuse. But if something was going on that, uh, affected how I felt, for you, then I'd've let you know anyways. 'Cause you're important.
...And that's why I got so pissed. 'Cause it meant you didn't trust me, or thought I wouldn't--value you enough to say anything. And--both of those're bad.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 11:00 pm (UTC)From:I do trust you-- it's not an issue of "value" or anything, either, and it took like... the rest of the night thinking about it to realize that's mostly what it was? The feelings thing. I'd kinda realized I had some jealousy stuff a bit ago, but it never came up, and I never had reason to think it would so I guess I just... if you don't acknowledge it it doesn't exist, right?
[ huffs, and drains her cup, flopping back on the windowseat ]
It's all bad though, you're right. ... I definitely panicked. I guess cuz it was like... if something like that happens, I won't matter anymore...? Or something. ... kinda felt worse after that dillweed sent everyones' submissions to our phones, too.
...
Maybe it's stupid, but... I.
Uh.
... you won't make fun of me if I'm honest about somethin', right?
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 11:07 pm (UTC)From:Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 11:15 pm (UTC)From:I saw Intensity there and I like. I dunno. Got really sad, I guess...? Kinda felt like, maybe I'm really NOT good enough. I dunno a single person who'd be willing to kiss the guy that isn't basically crazy in love with him. And--
[ pauses. ]
... I dunno. My insecurity or whatever the heck about Intensity being a better girlfriend than me isn't your problem to fix and you don't gotta do anything about it or nothin'. M'just happy you're giving me a chance at all so I'll-- I'll work on it somehow.
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 11:24 pm (UTC)From:Intensity? Really!?
Re: 127, afternoon
Date: 2019-06-15 11:31 pm (UTC)From:rolls onto her side facing away from nem and covering her face with her hands ]
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