requiem: bother somebody else. im not talking about this again. im tired of people being allowed to barge into our fucking house whenever they want but ohhhh noooo their friend is here thoooo isnt it sooo sad for them we should let them do whatever they waaaaant
requiem: fuxck that
requiem: if thats how its gonna be ill just stay out
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: ok d☆☆dl☆m☆n: i just dont want you to be unhappy d☆☆dl☆m☆n: but i guess im really not helping rn so ill shut up d☆☆dl☆m☆n: dont stay away too long
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: i mean d☆☆dl☆m☆n: its hard not to worry if something makes you not want to be home d☆☆dl☆m☆n: i dont want anyone on the unit to feel not welcome d☆☆dl☆m☆n: but especially you
Well, I might. Could be I'm totally on the wrong track.
But... you were really upset about Ruby coming in and going all "mine, mine", right? Like she was staking a claim on your home and family and no one was contesting it?
I mean-- what you said before is, um. The big thing, yeah. And I don't have a problem with the new guy, either-- obviously... it's weird and kind of uh, worrying, having someone from another unit that was loyal to them on ours now, and Zraels are supposed to be Zraels. ... but...
It's... not really fair, is it? People keep getting... their old people back, from before, even if they're on different units. Wild City and Baritones has people back, and Wataru came from that guest unit... and he said-- that how Ruby was acting was "relatable" so her reaction was totally fine, or whatever.
But it's not. None of ours ever come back, not even on other units. It's not like-- like I want them on somewhere other than Zrael, either, but I just-- even if they did, so long's we could see 'em again...
[ quiet for a long moment before speaking again, voice wobbly. ]
... you guys're the only thing I got. Why do some-- some randos get to take that away from me? Why ain't their groups good enough? S'bad enough that if-- if you have to leave I'll never get you back, but they can just decide on their own that they're the real family or whatever now so what they want is more important? I know I'm-- not that important, to you all, but you're the most important things in the world to me. So I just-- ...
[ she starts and stops a moment more before trailing off into uneasy silence. ]
I-- I mean, I'm not... really, like... anyone's first choice for anything, y'know? I'm not dumb enough to think that. And it doesn't really bother me, or anything... cuz I know everyone got their own stuff to worry about, whether it's you all in Zrael or Nemesis or anyone else.
Saying stuff like that out loud isn't... y'know, it's weird and uncomfy so it's not like I'm gonna make anyone talk about it or admit it, either?
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Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-29 03:11 pm (UTC)From:requiem: well she's a fucking liar.
requiem: bother somebody else. im not talking about this again. im tired of people being allowed to barge into our fucking house whenever they want but ohhhh noooo their friend is here thoooo isnt it sooo sad for them we should let them do whatever they waaaaant
requiem: fuxck that
requiem: if thats how its gonna be ill just stay out
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-30 04:22 am (UTC)From:d☆☆dl☆m☆n: i wont let ppl from bit in the dorm anymore
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: its just them thats the problem right
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-30 04:25 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-30 04:31 am (UTC)From:d☆☆dl☆m☆n: i just dont want you to be unhappy
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: but i guess im really not helping rn so ill shut up
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: dont stay away too long
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-30 04:38 am (UTC)From:requiem: its not your fault. dont worry about it, ok?
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-30 04:40 am (UTC)From:d☆☆dl☆m☆n: its hard not to worry if something makes you not want to be home
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: i dont want anyone on the unit to feel not welcome
d☆☆dl☆m☆n: but especially you
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-30 06:35 pm (UTC)From:he'll get a call pretty early in the morning of 244 ]
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 04:36 am (UTC)From:Yo.
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 04:37 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 04:42 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 05:17 am (UTC)From:[ quiet for a long moment. ]
... know I'm being dumb.
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 05:19 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 05:20 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 05:32 am (UTC)From:But... you were really upset about Ruby coming in and going all "mine, mine", right? Like she was staking a claim on your home and family and no one was contesting it?
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 06:02 am (UTC)From:Yeah... um, and some other stuff, but that's more...
...
More stupid. I mean, it's all stupid, but.
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 06:08 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 06:10 am (UTC)From:I talked about it a little with Sabre but she hasn't... been here as long. So it's a little difficult to explain to her, I guess.
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 06:16 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 06:52 am (UTC)From:It's... not really fair, is it? People keep getting... their old people back, from before, even if they're on different units. Wild City and Baritones has people back, and Wataru came from that guest unit... and he said-- that how Ruby was acting was "relatable" so her reaction was totally fine, or whatever.
But it's not. None of ours ever come back, not even on other units. It's not like-- like I want them on somewhere other than Zrael, either, but I just-- even if they did, so long's we could see 'em again...
[ quiet for a long moment before speaking again, voice wobbly. ]
... you guys're the only thing I got. Why do some-- some randos get to take that away from me? Why ain't their groups good enough? S'bad enough that if-- if you have to leave I'll never get you back, but they can just decide on their own that they're the real family or whatever now so what they want is more important? I know I'm-- not that important, to you all, but you're the most important things in the world to me. So I just-- ...
[ she starts and stops a moment more before trailing off into uneasy silence. ]
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 06:58 am (UTC)From:What makes you think you're not important to us? To me?
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 07:05 am (UTC)From:I-- I mean, I'm not... really, like... anyone's first choice for anything, y'know? I'm not dumb enough to think that. And it doesn't really bother me, or anything... cuz I know everyone got their own stuff to worry about, whether it's you all in Zrael or Nemesis or anyone else.
Saying stuff like that out loud isn't... y'know, it's weird and uncomfy so it's not like I'm gonna make anyone talk about it or admit it, either?
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 07:07 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 07:10 am (UTC)From:... why?
Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 07:12 am (UTC)From:Re: 243, later
Date: 2020-05-31 07:14 am (UTC)From:I-I mean, it's not-- I wasn't thinking of Lucifel, or anything specifically, I just...
[ sort of helplessly, a little weak: ]
... generally.
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