[ leans into it slightly, and settles the other arm around her midsection. almost protectively, but it's kind of thoughtless. she continues, tiredly; ]
Mm. I don't... at least half his unit was in on it, at the trial. If he opened me up again I'm positive I'd die. ... my unit's gotten so many scars, recently? If he wanted to, we'd all be...
...
I didn't... want to be trapped. Or not be able to protect my-- family. ... maybe running away wasn't right, either, but Dia was so happy, and I...
[ startles a bit, clearly not having expected that, and for a second or two of her speaking she's kind of ...???
But she relaxes, twisting a little to bury her face against her chest, ears low against her hair, and wrap her arms around her back, briefly squeezing tight. ]
... yeah. I know. I mean, I do know, but it still sucks. I just... hadn't had a moment to buy off the scar yet, so when she walked in with him I kind of... panicked, y'know?
[ no, this is good. it's more than she expected, even, which was uhhh. maybe a comforting word or two, at most. so this is really... really nice.
at length, she shakes her head. ]
... no. Man, I don't think she's... ever really happy like that, if she trusts him and loves him or whatever I'm not gonna try to take that from her. And she said she'd warn me next time, so ... M'the only one who seems to have a problem with any of that unit, anyways.
[ a pause, turning her head a bit to be able to see nem's face kinda. ]
... you gonna be sticking around? Um, here, I mean.
she reluctant un-leans from nem's body to sit up again and rub her face, and gather up the blanket a bit. and give nem some space to get comfortable maybe. ]
[ takes a moment to fluff the blanket and drape it over both their legs as she slowly settles down in the leftover space, pulling her arm up under their pillow.
She does settle her free hands against nem's after a moment. ]
Okay. Good. You don’t gotta all the time, and it sure doesn’t gotta be me, but you should at least have somebody you can talk at, if you want. ...Some sleep might help, too.
I'm sure I can dig up someone who'd be willing to listen to me babble so I don't have to keep talking your ear off.
Y'know, I'd like it if you talked to me too...?
[ not to imply she doesn't already-- she's been more open than req could have expected, honestly-- but still...
huddles in, shuffling just enough to tuck her face against her neck and let go of her hand to curl that arm around her waist. Sleepy mumble: ]
... but I know it's hard. And m'sorry I keep being an idiot and pushing you into it. So even if you don't wanna I'm happy if things stay this way, for a while.
[Req can probably feel the flush that goes down her neck at that. Because-- Well--
...Well.
She props up on one shoulder, looking back towards the bedrooms. Cardigan and the others shouldn't start getting up for at least a little while longer, but better safe than sorry. After the better part of a minute, she scooches back down, apparently satisfied]
--Think we're clear if that didn't totally ruin the mood.
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Date: 2018-12-30 04:41 am (UTC)From:Of whatshisface?
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Date: 2018-12-30 04:55 am (UTC)From:Mm. I don't... at least half his unit was in on it, at the trial. If he opened me up again I'm positive I'd die. ... my unit's gotten so many scars, recently? If he wanted to, we'd all be...
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I didn't... want to be trapped. Or not be able to protect my-- family. ... maybe running away wasn't right, either, but Dia was so happy, and I...
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Date: 2018-12-30 05:40 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2018-12-30 05:40 am (UTC)From:...Sucks to have someone like that in your home. I'm sorry. No one can blame you for wanting to get away from that.
[gives her a protective squeeze]
So--don't worry about that part, okay? You gotta take care of yourself if you wanna be able to take care of anybody else, anyways.
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Date: 2018-12-30 05:57 am (UTC)From:But she relaxes, twisting a little to bury her face against her chest, ears low against her hair, and wrap her arms around her back, briefly squeezing tight. ]
... yeah. I know. I mean, I do know, but it still sucks. I just... hadn't had a moment to buy off the scar yet, so when she walked in with him I kind of... panicked, y'know?
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Date: 2018-12-30 06:46 am (UTC)From:[shivers, cradling Req closer. There isn't much else she can do, actually and that--also sucks, come to think of it]
...You gonna talk to her about it? I mean, I think you've got some pretty valid concerns about her boyfriend or whatever.
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Date: 2018-12-30 07:06 am (UTC)From:at length, she shakes her head. ]
... no. Man, I don't think she's... ever really happy like that, if she trusts him and loves him or whatever I'm not gonna try to take that from her. And she said she'd warn me next time, so ... M'the only one who seems to have a problem with any of that unit, anyways.
[ a pause, turning her head a bit to be able to see nem's face kinda. ]
... you gonna be sticking around? Um, here, I mean.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:07 am (UTC)From:...Alright. I guess--see how it goes. 'S not weird to be spooked about it, is all I wanted to say.
And--yeah, it's still early. Unless you want me to clear out, I don't have anyplace else to be.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:18 am (UTC)From:[ hesitates a moment, pressing her face into her shirt again and mumbling ]
Nah, I wanna be with you. You, uh. Wanna lay down with me, a bit...? Get comfy? ... maybe not though if this is too public or somethin'.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:24 am (UTC)From:[considers, and considers some more]
...Yeah, sure. Here's fine.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:29 am (UTC)From:she reluctant un-leans from nem's body to sit up again and rub her face, and gather up the blanket a bit. and give nem some space to get comfortable maybe. ]
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:44 am (UTC)From:...You good?
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:55 am (UTC)From:She does settle her free hands against nem's after a moment. ]
As far as what
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Date: 2018-12-30 09:10 am (UTC)From:Just...in general, I guess. ...C'mon, don't let other people define you.
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Date: 2018-12-30 02:24 pm (UTC)From:... better after talking. Honestly.
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Date: 2018-12-30 07:21 pm (UTC)From:Okay. Good. You don’t gotta all the time, and it sure doesn’t gotta be me, but you should at least have somebody you can talk at, if you want. ...Some sleep might help, too.
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Date: 2018-12-30 07:34 pm (UTC)From:Y'know, I'd like it if you talked to me too...?
[ not to imply she doesn't already-- she's been more open than req could have expected, honestly-- but still...
huddles in, shuffling just enough to tuck her face against her neck and let go of her hand to curl that arm around her waist. Sleepy mumble: ]
... but I know it's hard. And m'sorry I keep being an idiot and pushing you into it. So even if you don't wanna I'm happy if things stay this way, for a while.
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Date: 2018-12-31 01:44 am (UTC)From:...Things're pretty okay, for now.
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Date: 2018-12-31 02:01 am (UTC)From:...
Can I kiss you?
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Date: 2018-12-31 03:02 am (UTC)From:[Req can probably feel the flush that goes down her neck at that. Because-- Well--
...Well.
She props up on one shoulder, looking back towards the bedrooms. Cardigan and the others shouldn't start getting up for at least a little while longer, but better safe than sorry. After the better part of a minute, she scooches back down, apparently satisfied]
--Think we're clear if that didn't totally ruin the mood.
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Date: 2018-12-31 03:09 am (UTC)From:... if you wanna hide, don't you have a bedroom?
[ with some amusement, quiet. ]
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Date: 2018-12-31 03:12 am (UTC)From:[it's totally different??]
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Date: 2018-12-31 03:15 am (UTC)From:We can get not caught in your bed? I'll keep my hands to myself and everything.
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Date: 2018-12-31 04:06 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2018-12-31 04:13 am (UTC)From:[ she laughs, lightly, and reaches up to gently cup her cheeks. ]
... kiss?
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