Nah, I asked for it. Wanted to see what animal it'd give me.
[ bows her head a little-- sort of tucking her face against nem's shoulder, so she can pet. the ear twitches a little but it is very soft and very fuzzy. ]
[ don't worry she'll be mortified she said that later, she's just too tired now.
she pauses. ]
... yeah? I wasn't gonna put anyone on the spot and demand a bed. I mean-- originally I was gonna sleep in the lobby, but-- Cardigan said I could come by any time, so I figured...
Sorry. I can go somewhere else if it happens again?
she puts it back down again, hiding her face in her shoulder. ]
Nah, it's good. M'not gonna take you away from your friend, or whatever else you're doing just cuz I'm havin' some stupid feelings or something. I just... I dunno. Getting away in general helped. So did talking to you. So... thanks.
[ pfjkklj, pulls back a bit under the ruffling, straightening it out again...
and she sits up again, for a long moment just staring at her lap and tugging at tail fur. but eventually she speaks again, sinking back against the couch cushions. ]
[ leans into it slightly, and settles the other arm around her midsection. almost protectively, but it's kind of thoughtless. she continues, tiredly; ]
Mm. I don't... at least half his unit was in on it, at the trial. If he opened me up again I'm positive I'd die. ... my unit's gotten so many scars, recently? If he wanted to, we'd all be...
...
I didn't... want to be trapped. Or not be able to protect my-- family. ... maybe running away wasn't right, either, but Dia was so happy, and I...
[ startles a bit, clearly not having expected that, and for a second or two of her speaking she's kind of ...???
But she relaxes, twisting a little to bury her face against her chest, ears low against her hair, and wrap her arms around her back, briefly squeezing tight. ]
... yeah. I know. I mean, I do know, but it still sucks. I just... hadn't had a moment to buy off the scar yet, so when she walked in with him I kind of... panicked, y'know?
[ no, this is good. it's more than she expected, even, which was uhhh. maybe a comforting word or two, at most. so this is really... really nice.
at length, she shakes her head. ]
... no. Man, I don't think she's... ever really happy like that, if she trusts him and loves him or whatever I'm not gonna try to take that from her. And she said she'd warn me next time, so ... M'the only one who seems to have a problem with any of that unit, anyways.
[ a pause, turning her head a bit to be able to see nem's face kinda. ]
... you gonna be sticking around? Um, here, I mean.
she reluctant un-leans from nem's body to sit up again and rub her face, and gather up the blanket a bit. and give nem some space to get comfortable maybe. ]
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Date: 2018-12-30 01:55 am (UTC)From:Mhm.. s'early, anyway. Figured I'd head back when I'm positive we've got no more visitors at home or something.
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Date: 2018-12-30 02:01 am (UTC)From:Not trying to show off the ears?
[light, though a bit tense]
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Date: 2018-12-30 02:05 am (UTC)From:Haha. You like 'em? They're real soft. Thought they'd be done by now but I guess I have a couple hours left...
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Date: 2018-12-30 02:29 am (UTC)From:[wraps an arm around her shoulders, chancing a gentle touch at an ear as an afterthought]
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Date: 2018-12-30 02:32 am (UTC)From:[ bows her head a little-- sort of tucking her face against nem's shoulder, so she can pet. the ear twitches a little but it is very soft and very fuzzy. ]
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Date: 2018-12-30 02:55 am (UTC)From:Oh yeah? Were you surprised?
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Date: 2018-12-30 03:01 am (UTC)From:A little. Thought it'd be a bat, but this is softer and fluffier.
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Date: 2018-12-30 03:11 am (UTC)From:...Bat'd be pretty on-the-nose, anyways.
So you've really been out here all night?
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Date: 2018-12-30 03:14 am (UTC)From:she pauses. ]
... yeah? I wasn't gonna put anyone on the spot and demand a bed. I mean-- originally I was gonna sleep in the lobby, but-- Cardigan said I could come by any time, so I figured...
Sorry. I can go somewhere else if it happens again?
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Date: 2018-12-30 03:27 am (UTC)From:If somebody had a problem with it, you'd've known by now.
[pauses]
...If stuff's super bad, you can call or something. Not gonna leave you in the lurch when me and Hurricane're usually just hanging out anyways.
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Date: 2018-12-30 03:35 am (UTC)From:... ah...
she puts it back down again, hiding her face in her shoulder. ]
Nah, it's good. M'not gonna take you away from your friend, or whatever else you're doing just cuz I'm havin' some stupid feelings or something. I just... I dunno. Getting away in general helped. So did talking to you. So... thanks.
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Date: 2018-12-30 04:21 am (UTC)From:[and then she relents, looking away and messing up her hair]
Anyways, I get it. But you can talk to me whenever if you want. I check my texts at night, even.
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Date: 2018-12-30 04:37 am (UTC)From:and she sits up again, for a long moment just staring at her lap and tugging at tail fur. but eventually she speaks again, sinking back against the couch cushions. ]
... was just scared. S'all.
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Date: 2018-12-30 04:41 am (UTC)From:Of whatshisface?
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Date: 2018-12-30 04:55 am (UTC)From:Mm. I don't... at least half his unit was in on it, at the trial. If he opened me up again I'm positive I'd die. ... my unit's gotten so many scars, recently? If he wanted to, we'd all be...
...
I didn't... want to be trapped. Or not be able to protect my-- family. ... maybe running away wasn't right, either, but Dia was so happy, and I...
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Date: 2018-12-30 05:40 am (UTC)From:...Sucks to have someone like that in your home. I'm sorry. No one can blame you for wanting to get away from that.
[gives her a protective squeeze]
So--don't worry about that part, okay? You gotta take care of yourself if you wanna be able to take care of anybody else, anyways.
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Date: 2018-12-30 05:57 am (UTC)From:But she relaxes, twisting a little to bury her face against her chest, ears low against her hair, and wrap her arms around her back, briefly squeezing tight. ]
... yeah. I know. I mean, I do know, but it still sucks. I just... hadn't had a moment to buy off the scar yet, so when she walked in with him I kind of... panicked, y'know?
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Date: 2018-12-30 06:46 am (UTC)From:[shivers, cradling Req closer. There isn't much else she can do, actually and that--also sucks, come to think of it]
...You gonna talk to her about it? I mean, I think you've got some pretty valid concerns about her boyfriend or whatever.
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Date: 2018-12-30 07:06 am (UTC)From:at length, she shakes her head. ]
... no. Man, I don't think she's... ever really happy like that, if she trusts him and loves him or whatever I'm not gonna try to take that from her. And she said she'd warn me next time, so ... M'the only one who seems to have a problem with any of that unit, anyways.
[ a pause, turning her head a bit to be able to see nem's face kinda. ]
... you gonna be sticking around? Um, here, I mean.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:07 am (UTC)From:...Alright. I guess--see how it goes. 'S not weird to be spooked about it, is all I wanted to say.
And--yeah, it's still early. Unless you want me to clear out, I don't have anyplace else to be.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:18 am (UTC)From:[ hesitates a moment, pressing her face into her shirt again and mumbling ]
Nah, I wanna be with you. You, uh. Wanna lay down with me, a bit...? Get comfy? ... maybe not though if this is too public or somethin'.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:24 am (UTC)From:[considers, and considers some more]
...Yeah, sure. Here's fine.
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:29 am (UTC)From:she reluctant un-leans from nem's body to sit up again and rub her face, and gather up the blanket a bit. and give nem some space to get comfortable maybe. ]
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Date: 2018-12-30 08:44 am (UTC)From:...You good?
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